19th Nov 2004

Strange day. Of screw-ups. 3 broken. Just realised Leonids' at 5.49am tmr -- Sat -- morning. I won't be able to stay up to watch it. And I would never forget 17 Nov 1999. When I first caught the Leonids at ECP... with my sis, and YS and her brothers. Jason and his gf (tho they are not together now)... and Jason's is in HK now.

J wanted to come with me, a yr or two ago? Anyway, can't stay up today... too tired. Had indigestion -- tummy upset -- not hungry... but craving for porridge... healthier chicken porridge. I would be touched if someone could bring me porridge... depends who tho. HEE. But tummy still not well. :((

Remember E said he knows I would bring him porridge at like 3am, if he's going to want porridge when he's sick. Well, I think it's a tiny thing to do for someone you love. But tt's in the past already. Quite amazed how completely I can let go of a relationship when it's over. Hahah.

What a day... this will go down in history.

I pray.

P's and M's Wedding nite!

It is interesting, even tho I have been to quite a few weddings, every wedding would still spark off thoughts and emotions deep in me. Nothing bitter, mind you. Everything's sweet.

Not used to feeling nervous speaking! hahhah. But somehow today feels more real than the rest, maybe it's cos the groom was totally sweeeeet and brave. Sang "Fly me to the Moon" as a surprise, and waltz-ed with his wife. pretty kewl. This is when I wished I could interview them and record their thoughts, emotions, and pictures. Haha. Some sort of remnant occupational hazard?

The last time I was at Raffles the Plaza attending a wedding was with C. His friend's wedding a year back. Wasn't in quite a good stage for us then, resources-wise, unfortunately. Still, I've always thot of tt Stamford Ballroom named Sophia.

But I am dreaming of my own wedding -- Botanic, Fort Canning (with wat's tt restaurant's name) -- lawn wedding... Then probably a good many people would melt under the sun! With airy tents, mist fans... church lawn wedding. Thinking of it, but not anytime soon, I'm sure. :)

Kids brought up with Sunday schools, a God-honouring family going to church together. Bliss!

Dear Lord, be the Lord of my life, I'm issuing a blank cheque in your name, please let me be a blessing to all.

Hmm... Ad just said he's going to call me from Flo. Interesting...

It's (Hope) really *I* funny (didn't) how *screw* people (things) came *up* to (by) me *telling* to (P) ask *I* me (like) what (someone else.) my MSN nic 'heart flutters when I hear..." My cell people thot it must be a guy I'm talking about... FUNNIE! Had a good laugh when they knew wat it was.

And I do have to stop doing what I'm not supposed to. (No sins! Very hard I'm sure.. and to FORGIVE too! ) And start fulfilling more of Maslow's basic need! :P And start moving -- PILATES & YOGA GYM (biz idea?)! BLADE! JOG! DANCE! RESISTANCE TRAINING!

STUDY TOO!

Or incorporate Golf? N jus passed her lady's golf set to me -- purple! Imagine tt! My fav colour. Haha. But I've always thot of it as pretty bo liao... walk walk walk jus to hit in balls. (Drats! And burst a few blood vessels when it doesn't, or worse still, nowhere to be found... ) Prefer pool anytime, but golf's a good game for networking? (Drats! Drats!)

(1. To forgive -- receive forgiveness, so as to release forgiveness. SPEAK, PRAY, ACT on it!
2. Don't be a double-minded Christian, u are in, or u are out.)

Hmm. Just read that stressful situations make the body release cortisols, which makes it store fat! Not good at all... OOOOOMMMMMMMMMMM... ... OOOOOMMMMMMMMMMM... ... OOOOOMMMMMMMMMMM... ...

PILATES & YOGA! BLADE! JOG! DANCE! RESISTANCE TRAINING!

SING! "But if you sing, sing
sing, sing, sing, sing", so says Travis...