Pain is a call to serve

叶子 (蔷薇之恋原声带版) 歌词

阿桑

叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子
天堂原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘当初怎么开始飞翔
孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单
爱情原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘当时是怎样有人陪伴
我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你
叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子


Haaha. Quite glad, this thing can paste Chinese... :P

It's strange. How seeing someone you've not met for sometime can make you think and miss him so much more.

Just met Zhaoyan today, after so many yrs -- my pri school friend. My best friend in P1, P2. And she's getting married on Oct 8 to Jeremy. Also from CCHS (M). How time flies.

How often shld we take stock of life? To think -- I knew her 20 yrs ago. But I don't think I know her now.

How much do we know of what our friends think, feel, and wat's impt to them, their priorities, their burdens, their problems... how much do we empathise... how unselfish are we?

Does lending someone money make the person obligated to us? How much can we leverage on that?

I pray for Lixia, and Junqi. Why am I so passionate about bringing them to church?

If I think I'm not good enuff, why do I still want to be a star? Is it to cover up for my real self, or am I really a selfish person anyway?

What is money? How much is money worth? Dignity? Sanity? Other's opinions? Integrity? Own measure of self-worth? "One can't serve two masters."

Money isn't bad -- let me reiterate. It's just a mode of payment -- like NETS. haha.

As long as it's not yours, it falls under the category of things that are to be returned to it's rightful owner. 路不拾遗。Do feelings work this way too? Do not covert? Does tt apply to how she already feels for him?

"Let's say if both of us are not married by a certain age then we marry each other lor"... would you ever, say yes?
"Wat u think?"
"If its u, I would"
"What about u?"

Is that a compliment or a snub? ? ? I guess money don't so much matter. Freedom matters more. Freedom. From? Freedom in the Lord?

Think I jus hurt two ppl already today.


10 Jul 2005... STOP PLAYING THE GAME OF SHAME AND BLAME.

He doesn't tempt us, we're tempted by our own selfish desires, and we've allowed the devil to perpetuate the shame and blame, and pain in our lives.

1. Stop your game of shame -- find your dignity in God.
2. Stop your game of blame -- find your destiny in God.

A. Make sure your dignity is not dependent on your looks, your bank account nor accolades from superiors or people around you. Whose approval are you seeking anyway?

His sole purpose in dying for us is to take away our shame. He bore our shame on the cross.

Most encouraging chapt in the bible -- > Romans 8.

Life in the Spirit
8:1 There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. [1] 2 For the law of the Spirit of life has set you [2] free in Christ Jesus from the law of sin and death. 3 For God has done what the law, weakened by the flesh, could not do. By sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin, [3] he condemned sin in the flesh, 4 in order that the righteous requirement of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not according to the flesh but according to the Spirit. 5 For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit. 6 To set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace. 7 For the mind that is set on the flesh is hostile to God, for it does not submit to God's law; indeed, it cannot. 8 Those who are in the flesh cannot please God.

9 You, however, are not in the flesh but in the Spirit, if in fact the Spirit of God dwells in you. Anyone who does not have the Spirit of Christ does not belong to him. 10 But if Christ is in you, although the body is dead because of sin, the Spirit is life because of righteousness. 11 If the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in you, he who raised Christ Jesus from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit who dwells in you.

Heirs with Christ
12 So then, brothers, [4] we are debtors, not to the flesh, to live according to the flesh. 13 For if you live according to the flesh you will die, but if by the Spirit you put to death the deeds of the body, you will live. 14 For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons [5] of God. 15 For you did not receive the spirit of slavery to fall back into fear, but you have received the Spirit of adoption as sons, by whom we cry, “Abba! Father!” 16 The Spirit himself bears witness with our spirit that we are children of God, 17 and if children, then heirs—heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him.

Future Glory
18 For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. 19 For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God. 20 For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope 21 that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to decay and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God. 22 For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. 23 And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. 24 For in this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? 25 But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience.

26 Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. 27 And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because [6] the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will of God. 28 And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, [7] for those who are called according to his purpose. 29 For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. 30 And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.

God's Everlasting Love
31 What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who can be [8] against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son but gave him up for us all, how will he not also with him graciously give us all things? 33 Who shall bring any charge against God's elect? It is God who justifies. 34 Who is to condemn? Christ Jesus is the one who died—more than that, who was raised—who is at the right hand of God, who indeed is interceding for us. [9] 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or danger, or sword? 36 As it is written,

“For your sake we are being killed all the day long;
we are regarded as sheep to be slaughtered.”

37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Psalms 2:8
8 Ask of me, and I will make the nations your heritage,
and the ends of the earth your possession.

He told Beethoven: You don't need to hear music to make music, it's in you.


YOu feel special not becos of the new car, or that salary increment -- they fade in two weeks -- they simply can't replace the proximity, and sincerity of someone caring, looking after and loving you -- For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

B. Take responsibility for your life.
"If only"...

Suffering comes from the Devil who came to sack, steal, kill and destroy.
No one to blame -- you commit sin as you've been thinking about it.

Besides, there is nothing anyone can do to mess up your destiny -- no one can rob you of your destiny with God. Be secure in His love.

A lady told me as she prayed for me during altar call... "My purpose comes from pain, when I serve, it resides... like a reminder, to serve the less fortunate."

Trust in His Provisions. To provide for his provisions.

I pray for happiness, and peace. Amen.